I am frustrated lately. 

Something my pastor used to say keeps coming to my mind: "There is only one question...Is God Enough? And the answer is ALWAYS yes."

If we have nothing else; we have enough. He is sufficient. 

Not God plus extra money....not God plus better legs....not God plus more time or less heartache.

Just Him. 

*sigh*

Good to know.

Sweet Summertime?

Summer's coming! I am not sure if I am ready...honestly? Just not sure. But do you think summer cares about that? Nope. It's coming anyway. I love Summer weather. I love how camp is so alive. I love having more staff around. However, the 2,800 camper names I need to enter? Not quite ready for that. The earlier mornings? Not. Ready. The lack of time off? Nope.

I'm working on it....:)

Also, I kind of wish East Texas was about six hours closer. There seems to be quite a few good things going on in East Texas. Can someone just move that a little closer please? Thanks so much. :D

I struggle to see the good in things sometimes. I try to be positive but every now and then I just feel sad.

Last week the pastor of our church 'passed on' (as we are choosing to say). It was unexpected and he left behind a wife, three daughters and sons in law and one son and daughter in law. He also left nine grandchildren; two of which have not yet been born. It was such a shock and is still very hard to believe. I know he is happy now - and with Jesus. I just feel sad for his sweet family. I feel sad for the church and the heaviness that is present there.

YET, I have decided to see the beauty in all situations; to embrace the love that is there - even when it is difficult to see. Yesterday, at his funeral, I saw a large amount of sadness...but I also saw beauty. I saw hope.

In the eyes of his son, speaking so passionately of his father's love...and being strong for his mother and sisters.

In the faces of his seven sweet grandchildren as they released brightly colored balloons into the sky and sang "I'll Fly Away"

In the voices of his daughters - singing "Because He Lives" and making it all the way through without crying - because they know that is what he would have wanted.

In the shaky hands of a young man he mentored - scared to speak in public but standing boldly on stage and telling us of the respect he had for this great man.

Sadness...yes...but beauty still. Laughter and tears.

I am so much more aware now of the time I spend with those that I love. Every day could be our last...every conversation our final conversation. Life is fleeting. We should embrace it! Embrace this crazy, beautiful, awful, amazing, fleeting life.

List Time!

I have been made fun of in the past for the number of bulleted lists I put on my blog...and you know what? I totally don't care. I'm in love with lists.

I know you're excited.

Here is a list of the ten things I'm currently into:

• There is a new radio station here in the Corpus Christi area that I can't stop listening to...94.7....it's classic rock, texas country, americana music. Mmmm....
• The gas station in o.g. which is basically the number one hang out...sells these kolaches in the morning and yes, I know they are from a gas station but they are KILLER. Can we talk about sausage and melted cheese and jalapenos wrapped up in a big piece of bread/roll? It's love.
• This blog: www.stylemepretty.com...I can look at wedding pictures forever. I don't know. Go ahead. Make fun of me. I just love how they express the couple's personality and are a representation of their story...their love. The cuteness is overwhelming.
• Big, $5 sunglasses.
  
• Diet Dr. Pepper Cherry. A step up from regular diet soda I must say...and I am a Dr. Pepper conossieur. :)
• Bluegrass music. I don't get tired of listening to it lately. Alison Krauss and Nickel Creek mostly.
• Staying up too late talking and being tired the next day.
  
• My new business cards. They're pink. That's right. I didn't think they made them in pink but then the boys surprised me...so fabulous.
  
• My jean jacket. I don't really know if jean jackets are cool anymore...but I've been wearing that thing out.
• The approaching summer. The days are getting long. The sun is shining. Bring it on.

I know you have all been anxiously awaiting that list...the millions of you who lay awake at night wondering what kind of amazingness will be revealed on my awe-inspiring blog. Haha. Anyways, there it is. I always feel better after I put to words the good things in my life. They definitely outweigh the bad.

I promise to post some pics soon...and by soon I mean before August. :)

I am reading J.R.R. Tolkien for the first time and I have to say, I'm a fan. I have just never read anything by him - not for a specific reason - just because I've never taken the time to do it. I've never seen the movies either so it is a whole new world. :) It's funny; I vary between extremes with fantasy/fiction writing. The practical reasonable side of me thinks some of it is a little hard to believe. I find myself thinking, "why are trees talking right now? Like that would ever happen." BUT, the little dreamer deep inside me secretly loves being able to escape to a world of great adventure and mystery. It's fun to get lost in the beautiful imagery sometimes. I'm excited to finish the first book and get started on the others!

In other news, summer is coming up soon...wow....it seems like there is so much to do. I'm really looking forward to it but I'm nervous at the same time. Our summer staff are shaping up to be pretty amazing so it should be fabulous.

I've just been really happy lately. I know there is tons to do before summer and my hair is an awkward length and I don't feel well and I keep gaining weight even though I have been hungry for three weeks but for some reason: I just don't care! I'm happy about life right now. The hair will grow out...I'm still wearing the same size of jeans...I feel better than I did last week...I don't have the swine flu...everything is going to be fine. I sang at a funeral this past week and being in that situation always serves to remind me that life is not about whether or not we had great legs; it's not about how much money we made...it is about the LIVES WE TOUCH; the ones we love; the legacy we leave behind. That's what counts. Everything else is just stuff.