Here's Hoping...

You can pretty much bet that when I start listing things I'm grateful for in my life it's because I'm EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED and trying to be optimistic. Other 'clues': I blare Pat Green music because it makes me feel better...I drink lots of Dr. Pepper, like ridiculous amounts...I don't talk...I watch back to back episodes of Gilmore Girls...I drive somewhere (like the beach) and don't tell anyone where I'm going or answer my phone. Just some clues for you...in case you ever wonder where I am...or why I am drinking my fourth 44oz Dr. Pepper in one day. Haha. Wow I should really work on my coping skills.

ANYWAYS, instead of whining and being completely emo (like I have been for no apparent reason this entire week), I've decided to list out things I love in my life right now. It's like therapy for me; always makes me feel less pessimistic. Here it goes:

I love that Farica and Jordan come over once a week and we eat and talk and watch cheesy VHS movies...I love that Bobby is helping me with the youth class at church...I love that my sweet youth kids trust me enough to ask for advice...I love that I carved my first pumpkin ever last night...I love that my sweet brother mows my grass and helps me move things and doesn't complain...I love that my mama always tells me I'm pretty...I love that my electricity bill is so low...I love that I have certain nights of the week now where I can do anything I want, which usually equals a whole bunch of nothing...I love that even though I'm three years out of college I can still sleep until noon on Saturdays...I love that I have a treadmill to run on...I love the weather lately...I love that I always know the heart of God, even when I don't know the mind of God...I love that I have amazing friends who call me and pray for me and love me even though I pretty much suck at staying in touch...I love sweet babies, and the fact that they make me smile no matter how bad my day is...and the reining champion: I love the fact that there is always hope. I see hope all around me....and I pity those who do not have it. Our hope endures right? It endures pain and heartache and frustration and confusion. Hope endures.

Yep. See? I feel better already.